Does it happen with you that most of the self indulgence with ur thoughts happens while u r traveling?. Well, with me its the case. I just dive in to my sea of thoughts whenever I travel, be it train, bus, car, or the shared auto that I take for the office. The one thing thats rattling my mental peace and baffling me with its enigmatic nature is the topic "Love". Its been so much talked about and plethora of books and novels have been written over it since time immemorial. But still if you pose this question to 10 different ppl "What is love?". Chances are you may get 11 different answers . Having through a couple of relationships I think the so called "love" still seems to be an enigma to me. Still figuring out wt its real meaning is ? Is it wat that is portrayed in books and movies or is it something else? Or its just that its there...somewhere.... but u keep looking for it in all the wrong places. But diving a bit deep I got to know what could be a probable reason. Falling in love and finding the "true love" are two different things. I think in the first case, you can fall in love with anybody with whom u are attracted to (physically, emotionally)over a period of time. But in the second case destiny plays a major part. Its not the case that people find true love so easily. But most of the ppl get trapped coz the initial stages in both the cases are same. U feel the same excitement, the same caring, the same feel good things. But its only at later stages that u r confronted by the real harsh facts. The excitement goes away, the understanding and commitment comes into picture. U feel no more the way u did. Then what?. And the situation becomes worse if one of the partner feels the same way as he or she did in the initial stages. Dream worlds come crashing in front front of u. So at that crossroads what should you do if your partner love and cares for u a lot but you don't feel the same? Is it my fault? Beleaguered by moral questions and pragmatic thoughts, u feel mired in net of thoughts. Something tears u apart. So what should one do in that situation? Be true to him and his/her partner or just keep on carrying that pus in his/her mind? Its not an easy decision to take. The repercussions of detachment is never an easy experience. And what follows is aptly depicted in latest movie Dev D. called "emotional atyachar" ( where the protagonist till the end believes that he was "in love" with the heroine but eventually it turns out that it was nothin like that anh how possibly it could be if he didn't even knew her that well) But the point I have learned is that it takes time to know. There is no way u can know in the beginning itself. I wish there were litmus tests we could perform at the beginning only so that we could find out if its the real one. And more of what I have learned till now from my relationships is "what love is not"..I knw I am being an a$$ being true.. but thats the only option I have got... I have been after mirages in my life so far...but hoping for a resert rose ..as in I won't b looking for it...but still keeping my fingers crossed.
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